Yeah, [ she answers quietly, ] I didn't do that too much before meeting the both of you, either.
[ yukari didn't have friends before joining s.e.e.s. it's a sobering thought, but one she's long come to terms with. all of her peers growing up were all so--normal. a mom, a dad, an address that didn't change every few months. they lived in a world where they could walk forward without restraint. and yukari lived in one where she would only ever see their backs as they moved ahead.
that's how it worked. how it would always work.
then there'd been kotone. then fuuka. then, surprisingly, mitsuru. then aigis. for the first time in years, she had people who texted when she was out late, asked what snacks she wanted for the kitchen, introduced her to things they loved just because. not only did they open up to her, but she learned to do so in turn.
and now sitting side-by-side with mitsuru, talking about painful parts of their pasts and offering advice, felt easier than ever. ]
You know there's no reason to beat yourself up for wanting to walk away, right? Dealing with that stress every day can be...a lot. [ yukari couldn't count the number of times she'd pulled up the shinkansen website, tickets to some remote place sitting in the cart, only to close it seconds later, feeling more exhausted than before. ] Wanting to be your own person isn't a bad thing.
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Date: 2021-10-03 02:37 am (UTC)[ yukari didn't have friends before joining s.e.e.s. it's a sobering thought, but one she's long come to terms with. all of her peers growing up were all so--normal. a mom, a dad, an address that didn't change every few months. they lived in a world where they could walk forward without restraint. and yukari lived in one where she would only ever see their backs as they moved ahead.
that's how it worked. how it would always work.
then there'd been kotone. then fuuka. then, surprisingly, mitsuru. then aigis. for the first time in years, she had people who texted when she was out late, asked what snacks she wanted for the kitchen, introduced her to things they loved just because. not only did they open up to her, but she learned to do so in turn.
and now sitting side-by-side with mitsuru, talking about painful parts of their pasts and offering advice, felt easier than ever. ]
You know there's no reason to beat yourself up for wanting to walk away, right? Dealing with that stress every day can be...a lot. [ yukari couldn't count the number of times she'd pulled up the shinkansen website, tickets to some remote place sitting in the cart, only to close it seconds later, feeling more exhausted than before. ] Wanting to be your own person isn't a bad thing.