Of course. It just ... it wasn't something that I'd done with any sort of regularity before you and Kotone came into my life.
[ Prior to the two of them, she simply didn't have many people that she could have opened up to. Most of her relationships, personal or professional, were colored in some way by her family's social status. That same status, paired with her single-minded pursuit of her goals, created a certain distance between herself and the majority of her peers. Even then, what few genuine friendships she had weren't well suited to it. She and Shinjiro had grown distant after the accident that led to his departure from S.E.E.S., and while Akihiko would have listened to her problems, he would have likely been as unprepared to discuss matters of the heart as she was.
[ With Yukari and Kotone, baring her soul was a liquid thing -- it flowed easily, without any discomfort or effort on her part. ]
I told her everything that I've told you about the situation. She listened, allowed me to commiserate, offered encouragment where I needed it. It helped - tremendously - but it didn't change the reality of my situation.
I ...
[ She sighed, hanging her head. ]
I began to fantasize about simply walking away. About abandoning my responsibilities and going someplace where nobody knew who I was, and where no one expected anything of me.
[ Mitsuru shook her head at her own foolishness. Even months later, she was still frustrated with herself for becoming so enamored with such a wildly irresponsible idea. ]
I would have never gone through with it, of course, but ...
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[ Prior to the two of them, she simply didn't have many people that she could have opened up to. Most of her relationships, personal or professional, were colored in some way by her family's social status. That same status, paired with her single-minded pursuit of her goals, created a certain distance between herself and the majority of her peers. Even then, what few genuine friendships she had weren't well suited to it. She and Shinjiro had grown distant after the accident that led to his departure from S.E.E.S., and while Akihiko would have listened to her problems, he would have likely been as unprepared to discuss matters of the heart as she was.
[ With Yukari and Kotone, baring her soul was a liquid thing -- it flowed easily, without any discomfort or effort on her part. ]
I told her everything that I've told you about the situation. She listened, allowed me to commiserate, offered encouragment where I needed it. It helped - tremendously - but it didn't change the reality of my situation.
I ...
[ She sighed, hanging her head. ]
I began to fantasize about simply walking away. About abandoning my responsibilities and going someplace where nobody knew who I was, and where no one expected anything of me.
[ Mitsuru shook her head at her own foolishness. Even months later, she was still frustrated with herself for becoming so enamored with such a wildly irresponsible idea. ]
I would have never gone through with it, of course, but ...